Does anyone have any idea's on how to deal with these problems
My problems are this I have let hate, anger, and love build up in me all my life. Because I couldn’t let anything go and now I don’t know what to do. I can’t just let it go and it has begun to really effect me. What is worse is that all my love is overflowing at times where at other times it is rotting away and giving way to more anger and hatred. It has gotten to the point that anything remotely good for me is being pushed away. Heck I can’t even hold my scripture open to read them without feeling a sudden urge to rip them. I just don’t know what is happening to me now days. My thoughts tend to dwell on doing dark and evil things with only small lapses into thoughts of goodness. And the sad thing is I enjoy thinking those dark thoughts. I don’t know what is happening to me now a days.
posted by joe ford jr at 3:37 AM
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Joey,
I;m asking this because I care, okay?
Are you seeing a doctor and taking medication?
Mental illness is like having a cold or a broken arm or the flu or something. It's painful and we need to go to the doctor for it, just the same.
It doesn't make you a bad person either. But it is kinda dumb to just wallow away in sickness, when it can be fixed.
I have to take medicine for depression and anxiety and it makes me feel so much better.
yes i am but since i my visit to the hospital my new doctor asked me when i went to my first appointment and asked about the medicine i used to be on he told me if i didn't think i needed to take it then i didn't have to take it anymore so i no longer take that now i just take the medicine i was on in the hospitial because it gave me more courage to say some things to people i would normally be to scared to say like when i told you how i liked you alot and not in a friend way but since i liked you i would keep are relationship the way it was and just be friends but to say what i said to you took all the anger i could drag up to give me the courage to say how i felt about you. and this sickness and depression stems mostly from my feeling of being undesirable to the opposite sex and the feeling of lonelyness and friendlessness but with the livingstons and you i don't feel totally friendless but still it doesn't help much with my anger and hate. i have so much anger and hate built up in me that one time when i was about 14 or 15 when i had just gotten into a fight with my parents and michael got in my way of me getting away before the police came and i came so close to killing him and the scary thing is the only thing that kept me from killing him was a tinnie tiny bit of brotherly love. but the really scary thing is when i look back on that day the only thing i regret is not killing him and that worries me that i am capable of thoughts like that. And looking back on what i have typed it doesn't surprize me that i haven't found someone just looking at how my mind works i'm surprized people don't treat me like they used to treat leopors. and the only thing i can thinks to do to distract myself from those kind of thoughts is to play video games and watch funny cartoons and do whaever i can to keep those or any thoughts like that out of my head
I don't know how your diet, exercise and sleep patterns are, but some times that can help when your emotions go out of control.
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