Too Much Pain

Between the pain in my heart and the pain in my head I don't know how much longer I can handle all the pain. My heart hurts me more and more each day I don't know which is worse the pain in my heart or the pain in my head. How much longer must I live with my life filled with pain I sometimes imagine just taking a walk and never coming back and the only problem with that is where to go. Sometimes when I think of killing myself I think of the things people tell me I have to live for and the things I think I should live for. And lately the reasons on that list seem less important each time I think of them. I think I will post the list first then post this second.