Two parts

i think everyone has at least 2 parts to themselves there good side and there bad side. My main problem to date is this I have at least 2 major goals in life one goal for my good side and one for my bad. My goal for my good side is to just find someone special and get married hopefully in the temple and then raise a family and just live are lives. My goal for my bad side is to become the most hated, feared and powerful person in the world and to destroy any person or country that gets in my way. But i'm pretty sure that if my bad side gets to strong that i will do the right thing and make sure that i kill myself before i let myself harm even one person. I think my bad side is so strong because when i think of my life to date and think of the way i have been treated through out my life there have been very few times when i was happy because for most of my life i have been misrable and it get's me so mad i wish i could kill everyone in the world. Oops i think i should stop thinking about that stuff because all i do is get myself all worked up and mad.